i can’t be like this. i can’t be like this. tonight. that’s it. after tonight, i’ll build the wall back up that he so easily broke. i am the strong one. i’ve always been. the happy, confident one. but now he’ll see me for who i really am. the person i had despised for so long and he’ll run and hide. i don’t blame him. i’ve never actually grown up, i’ve only hidden deeper, and deeper. until i was so deep inside myself that i’d somewhat forgotten how much i don’t like about who i am. but he’s broken me. my many lines of defense. every side of my high, stone walls that worked so well. not used to keep others out. but to keep myself inside. no one’s broken them before. they’ve never been breached. but now they are. and i am vulnerable and weak.